Life isn't fair. It isn't logical, it isn't reasonable. And mostly, its not fair.
My dad used to tell me that as a kid... and really, whose parent hasn't told them something similar? The older I get, the more I realize the truth of that. Bad things happen to good people, and then sometimes things get even worse for no apparent reason.
There are lessons to be learned from all of your life experiences I suppose, and there is always some solution or positive outlook to make it better. But sometimes, while it makes no sense, you feel a little better if you just get angry at the irrationality of the life that you are supposedly in control of.
For example:
My college application and high-school/college transcripts are accepted in every state except the one I live and and am trying to attend school in. Why? Some education reform that one of MA's least favorite governors passed a few years back. Thanks so much for that....
Solution: I now need to invest several hundred dollars in an Education Counselor who can review my application and help me attempt to be accepted by any school in this state.
Anger: I have a 3.8GPA from the last school I went to, I'm a damn good student, and I really just want to pay the school a significant amount of money to study anthropology. Why won't anyone let me do that??!!
My cat has been suffering from a returning UTI since April. It cost me $300 to diagnose that 5 months ago, and get him medicine, vitamins, etc. 2 weeks ago, it got really bad, he was in tremendous pain, and an emergency trip to two vets, minor surgery, and $700 later, we've fixed (probably) the issue.
Solution: Work hard to pay off a vet bill, be grateful for a cat on the mend, hope he doesn't get sick again. Also, be grateful that I got a raise 3 weeks prior and only had to charge $500 worth of that expense.
Anger: WHY??!! Just when I start to get a little extra money, when I'm trying to pay off the computer I bought not 3 days prior.... why does is this a problem? Also, why didn't the vet figure this out in April?!
Speaking of computer.... I've been wanting a new computer for 3 years. I finally bought one, two weeks ago. I waited anxiously for it - because I ordered it custom built. A 15" MacBook Pro, 750GB hard drive, 8GB RAM, and a high-resolution glossy display (which has about 30% more pixels than the standard display). Sunday, I noticed a dead pixel right in the middle of my screen. I was so mad I almost cried. I've wanted this computer for so long and it came defective after I spent a horrendous amount of money on it.
Solution: Kept my cool. Arranged a genius bar appointment at the Apple Store I work in, and got it looked at before work yesterday. They did me a favor and fixed it immediately, instead of making me wait 3-5 days which is what they are quoting all our customers as turn around time this week.
Anger: I turn it on this morning, and realize something doesn't look quite right. Guess what? They put the STANDARD resolution display on my computer. I very clearly paid and extra $150 for the HIGH-RESOLUTION display. So now it have to live with the wrong display for a week while they try to order a new screen. I'd rather just have waited for it with the right display on with 1 dead pixel. I'm considering just returning the whole unit and getting a new one. Its stupid that I have to have a brand-new computer repaired twice in its 2 week life-span.
So those are my main problems. There's a dozen smaller issues lying around but when you've got a couple rocks in your shoes, you don't notice the sand and pebbles as much.
I'm trying not to be angry or cynical, and I'm really not. It's just so tiring to be the bigger person when Life is being so freaking immature.